Man...it has been a long while...

Phew...it has been a long while since I last write in this page.
Lots of things had happened & much of it was quite painful for me to bear.
Most of it had been shared with very few trusted individuals, so I don't see a point of elaborating it all over again.
One thing for sure though, I'm back alone for God-knows-how-long-has-it-been. Kinda weird though... I mean, this being single business. But anyway, what's done is done & I have to go on with my life... as it has always been.
What else is new...?
Well, this time around my classes are a bit tougher than it was but hey... life is not getting easier any moment, isn't it?

Hurm...

Headache la... been very stressed out lately. Man, this whole thing is making me nuts... huh!

Run It...

Me back with things to talk about. Right now at the council's office, sitting for my boss. Been thinking about wht had happened for the past few days, especially about my sisters.

The day before I took my final paper, my mama called me. Just to wish me luck for my paper that morning & sharing in some stories that has been happening in the family. Found out that my sister had been offered a job with RM1,500 as the starting salary, but guess what... she had (stupidly) turned down the offer. She had been staying at home for almost a year now, with nothing to do & no innitiative to anything that would fill up her time... and to be honest, it's driving us nuts. She had refused to talk to anyone of us (parents included) & would go straight to the room anytime we asked her questions.

For as long as I have known her, she is always the top amongst us all. The thing is, she is also the one who has gotten the biggest ego & an uncountless amount of stubbornness. Most of the time, she just wouldn't want to listen to what other people says, saying that no one can tell her what to do; she knows herself better & she knows what's best for herself. The thing is, she is also being not very nice to our parents & sad to say, both Mama & Abah are not happy with that.

If only I could just know what's in that (complex) mind of hers & figure out what is it that she wanted to do. I just want to reach out to her, but she is the one who's building a wall around herself. I wish I could do something... *sigh*

Stories from Malacca...

Just come back from SPARK (Seminar Pengurusan Asrama Kebangsaan) 2005 from Malacca. Went there last Monday, but it had already started on the previous day(Sunday). I got my FINAL paper, Edu. Psychology on that day. It was really stressful for us who are taking that paper since everybody else had already finished their exams & having a great time at their homes... *sigh*. Anyway, I'm pretty satisfied with what I've done so just have to wait for the results.

Okay, back to the SPARK thingy...
It was attended by officials and students from various higher learning institutions (public & private alike) all over Malaysia. I had to sit in for my boss, but to tell the truth.. I was really nervous especially after meeting other student leaders. Well, that's part and parcel of life anyway... live it or leave it...
The funny thing was, the some of the organising comittee thought that I was one of the university's officials & dressed me as 'Puan'... ahaha! So much for my cute looks... heehheehh!
I have to say that the seminar as a bit interesting, although sometimes I find the goal & purpose for the seminar itself had not been thoroughly achieved. Well, there's always room for improvement. Met some old friends, new friends... that's what having a seminar is all about.

What else... hurm...
It was a dreadful journey back since we were 2 hours behind schedule. The bus aircond broke down on its way to Malacca (Seremban to be exact) & the diver had to turn back to Shah Alam to change to another bus. Anyway, he driver was kind enough to go through all that just to fetch us back to the campus.

Right now, I'm having an online conversation with my long-lost friend from my primary school in Kedah. He's now teaching in UNISEL, but I won't reveal more... hehe! Used to have crush on him, but that was wayy... back. Glad to be in touch with old friends... kinda going back to your past & reminiscing the good ole' times.

HUrm, I think I need to hug a cat tonight... a fat cat... if I couldn't find one, I guess I just have to settle on my panda...hehehe!! I need to take a break... I miss the beaches..huhu!

Hurm... !

I wish I could say more, but lips are completely numb... I'm speechless. If only I have the power to change things... *sigh*. Got another paper to go... and another torturous gap to encounter. Waiting is pain.. and pain is excruciating... heh!
Anyway, enough of all dis nonsense.
Just can't wait to end this exam and take a break.

Oh, my lovely cat, Raichu had given birth to 3 kittens last Wednesday (20th Nov '05); 2 blackies and a white+red. Genders are yet to be known... so have to wait for a while to verify it. so now, my family has got 7 cats. Wonder if we would want to keep 'em all...

Been moping around the house... with less desire to actually make myself stay in one place. There I go again, making myself look miserable... well, the truth is, I'm kinda down at this moment. I really need to give myself a break... perhaps a day or to at the beach....
The worst thing is, it's monsoon season in the East Coast & I'm not really in favour of the beaches in the West Coast. Guess I have to find another alternative then...